Not Feeling God's love

Life is hard, and that's okay.
God never promises us a perfect, and happy life.
God does promise that he will love us, and take care of us.



Lately, it has been so hard for me to feel God's love for me. I have been feeling discouraged, doubtful, and sad. It seems like everything in my life is falling apart. My health is awful, I am having family troubles, I was in a car accident, and have to deal with, I have school stress, and I just want to cry.




It's easy to say "Why me?" Or, "Why don't you love me God, and why won't you take away my pain?" I have been praying for the same thing for almost three years, and nothing has really changed, and let me tell you it's hard.




Right now, in this season of my life I am struggling with my faith. I am struggling to feel the love God has for me. It's so easy to not trust in him, or to turn away from him. To give up. I have cried out to God to just try and figure out why.




This past Sunday, I opened up to my small group about the way I was feeling, and I am so glad I did. Not because it magically fixed everything, but because now they know. People know how I am feeling, and it's okay.




Having these doubts does not make me a bad leader, or a bad Christian. It makes me a real person.




I wish I could tell you how to magically fix these feelings. All I can say is continue to pray, and continue to spend time in the word. I have to believe all of this pain is for a reason.




God loves you, even when it does not feel like he loves you.



"And I am convinced, that nothing can separate us from God's love. Neither death, nor life. Neither angels, nor demons, neither our fears of today, nor worries about tomorrow- not even the powers of Hell can separate us from God's love. No power in the sky or in the earth below-Indeed nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:38-39



-Morgan Ratliff

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